Do you ever just sit and reflect? Reflect on how things used to be? wish things could go back to the way they once where? I do, every single day. I may not remember to much of how things once where, but what i do remember i miss dearly and i just don’t know how to get it back. Sometimes in life we go through so much, so much pain so much sorrow, we hurt each other in ways that we do not even speak about. Then we come back and try to mend what was once broken, try to fix it and take it back. Sometimes we can just go back to the way it was and other times we go back but it is never the same. I know how i feel but i am so scared to talk about it, I am scared to confront you and tell you what you really mean to me, scared to tell you how i truly feel or what i really want. What if you reject me? what if you laugh? what if you don’t hear me out? or even give me a chance? I believe everything in life happens for a reason and i Don’t believe that i got a second chance at life just to not try this again but how do i even proceed? I have been carrying this secret around inside of me for so long and I want to let it out before it’s to late I just don’t know when the right time is. If i do it to fast will i ruin it? if i wait to late will i miss it? How do you feel? idk what are you thinking? Idk will you want me? idk will you accept me ? idk there are just so many unknowns that make me so afraid. I know in life unless you go after what you want you will never get it. If you don’t reach for the stars you won’t hit the moon. One day I’ll have enough courage to ask you and talk to you about what i really want, and when the time comes hopefully you will feel the same way too, because i don’t know if i can handle the rejection coming from you…
August 31, 2020
Written By: Amanda Paige Medina
One thought on “Missing How it was…”
i would totally go for it and ask her out. I know you didnt come right out and say thats what you wanted to do but by the tone of this post i can tell that you really love and miss her. I would take the leap. Whats the worst that could happen. I bet she loves you and is willing to give things between you two a second chance. I would go for it.
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