Missing How it was…

Do you ever just sit and reflect? Reflect on how things used to be? wish things could go back to the way they once where? I do, every single day. I may not remember to much of how things once where, but what i do remember i miss dearly and i just don’t know how to get it back. Sometimes in life we go through so much, so much pain so much sorrow, we hurt each other in ways that we do not even speak about. Then we come back and try to mend what was once broken, try to fix it and take it back. Sometimes we can just go back to the way it was and other times we go back but it is never the same. I know how i feel but i am so scared to talk about it, I am scared to confront you and tell you what you really mean to me, scared to tell you how i truly feel or what i really want. What if you reject me? what if you laugh? what if you don’t hear me out? or even give me a chance? I believe everything in life happens for a reason and i Don’t believe that i got a second chance at life just to not try this again but how do i even proceed? I have been carrying this secret around inside of me for so long and I want to let it out before it’s to late I just don’t know when the right time is. If i do it to fast will i ruin it? if i wait to late will i miss it? How do you feel? idk what are you thinking? Idk will you want me? idk will you accept me ? idk there are just so many unknowns that make me so afraid. I know in life unless you go after what you want you will never get it. If you don’t reach for the stars you won’t hit the moon. One day I’ll have enough courage to ask you and talk to you about what i really want, and when the time comes hopefully you will feel the same way too, because i don’t know if i can handle the rejection coming from you…

August 31, 2020

Written By: Amanda Paige Medina

Author: Amanda Paige

I am a 30 year old woman, i have two children and i work full time. I am far from normal, but that is a good thing. I go through everyday challenges with friends, family, loved ones, and work just like any other person would. But at the end of the day I am me and no one is going to change that. Your true happiness is all that matters at the end of day. Life may not be fair but you can sure make it fun!! Living my best life; Life is long so make sure you live every day to the fullest Disclaimer: I am not a doctor or Licensed Psychologist please seek help if you need it. View all posts by Amanda Paige