Today i woke up just in a funk. I was not with it; i was not ready to start this week, i honestly was already over it. Something told me that today was just not going to be a good day and i just did not even want to be bothered with it. Now i sat on the side of my bed for an hour and i had a choice to make. I could either 1: call off of work and say the hell with this and the hell with that. Or 2: i could suck it up, get ready, meditate and tell myself today is going to be great and drive into work. Sometimes in life we have tough times. Especially being someone who suffers from mental illness, i have a lot of really rough days. There are days that i just can not get out of bed, days where mentally my body hurts from dealing with being physically sick and it gets in my head. I have days that i get so depressed i can not even move, i dont watch tv, i dont listen to music, i just lay in bed staring at the wall. I call those resetting days. Its okay to have these rough days but do not stay there, do not live there. Pick yourself up however hard it may be and keep going. Not only will you feel better for moving and getting out of bed or the house or going to work but your future self will thank you. Your future self will thank you when you still have a job, when you have money, when you can go out and live the life you want because you did not give up.
August 10, 2020
Written by: Amanda Paige Medina